Screaming Repentence

So I have not really written anything for months- I have been having so much fun spending time with Elizabeth.  I must say that I love motherhood.  I was apprehensive at first; thinking I would feel impatient, lost or lonely but I have not.  I find so much joy in the little things she does and the simple moments we have together.  I love watching her move, learn and develop.  I am so grateful that I have gotten this opportunity to be a mother! 

Here are some funny but very random 'moments' from our lives in the past couple of months (yes, it might be in multiple posts because I am writing during naps):

I am breast feeding Elizabeth. This is another thing that made me very nervous while pregnant; was I going to be able to? Was I going to want to? It felt immodest, would I feel uncomfortable the entire time? I learned that once you have the sweet baby bundle in your arms none of these things matter; it is just the two of you working together to make it work.  

 

Pictures taken 2-27-2013

 

Because it is a longer process Ben, who is so sweet and kind, got me a kindle to use as a timer, read on and entertain myself with.  I resisted the purchase at first because it seemed a little lavish but I must admit, I love it!  It is wonderful to be able to read and turn the pages easily with one hand; I have simple mindless games that I can play in the middle of the night; and I am able to time how long her feedings are. 

Every morning during our feeding Elizabeth and I listen to conference talks and the scriptures on the kindle.  I have never listened to the scriptures before and I have decided that I like it.  I was nervous that my mind would wander and I would get nothing from it, and truthfully sometimes it does, but I have also heard things and noticed things that I have never heard before.  The timbre and pace of hearing it is often different than how I would read it and this makes different words or phrases stand out more. 

One day I was listening (I think we were in 2 Nephi) and the phrase "ye must repent" was said.  Why I remember this exact phrase is because it was SCREAMED at me.  At the exact moment that phrase was said the timer (telling me she had been feeding 10 minutes) went off and instead of alarming it just turned the volume on the kindle up (extremely high).  It scared me soo bad that I jumped, which made Elizabeth jump and give me a confused annoyed look. Then I was engulfed in a fit of nervous, that just scared the pants off of me, laughter which also confused Elizabeth.  It was so funny that that phrase is what yelled at me- maybe the spirit 'whispers' through the kindle!!